Well....here it goes!

I cannot believe I am being so vulnerable and putting this out there.  This morning, before juicing, I weighed 193.5.  I took before pictures too, and I just cannot bring myself to put them on here even though it is a private blog.  I think I let my guard down enough with putting my all time highest weight on here.....

I am sick and tired of feeling sluggish and unhappy.  I just feel so uncomfortable in my own skin and I am desperate to make a change.  I have these beautiful 4 year old twins that are full of energy who desire my time and participation in their lives.  But my mental clarity and my current physical situation prevent me from being present.  I have nothing but excuses.  I am irritable, tired, and frustrated.  I just read an article last night about how yelling at your kids effects them and it brought me to tears.  I am THAT Mom.  I am constantly yelling and my kids fear me.  Maybe if I was more happy with myself, I would make them more happy with me.  I need to make a change NOW so that more time doesn't pass by that I can't get back.  I feel like I have already failed them during their first 4 years.  It is up to me to make the change.

After watching Joe Cross's Documentary, Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead (Multiple times) I have always wanted to try juicing.  Finally, this Christmas, my Mom got me my first juicer.  Yesterday I printed off Joe Cross's plan to do a 3 day reboot.  I went to the grocery store and spent $78 bucks on organic fruits and veggies to follow his 3 day plan.  I of course want this reboot to go longer than 3 days, but I am realistic and do not want to set myself up for failure.  I like meeting small goals.  That motivates me to proceed.  I heard the first 3 days are the hardest because your body is detoxing from caffeine, sugar, and every other toxin in your body!  I am so scared for the migraines that they say are coming.

I found the process to be relatively easy on how to work the juicer.  I washed all of the fruits and veggies and got busy!  For breakfast I made the Carrot-Apple-Lemon Juice.  I was super intimidated to try it at first.  It was orange...that was what scared me.  Just the fact that it was foreign got me second guessing myself! It made about 16 ounces of juice and I drank it in 3 big gulps.  It honestly wasn't bad...it was just different.  I am not big on carrots so I think that is what frightened me! I did gag but it was totally mental...had nothing to do with how it did actually taste.

As Joe Cross would say, "Juice On!"  I will be back later to update how lunch and dinner go!